Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Choices and the result

As each day goes by I think of the great life I am enjoying. Many choices good and bad have gotten me to this point in life. Here is a list of good and bad that got me to this point.

  • Had a dad that was a silent alcoholic and had PTSD
  • Mom tried protecting us and him so we didn't talk about the issues, and didn't showed much emotion
  • Found acceptance in a lot of wrong places
  • Tried living up to my brothers level that my mom put him on (couldn't do it)
  • Left home senior year
  • learned about the addiction my dad faced and I was slowly following, and went to treatment in UT while he went in NH
  • Went back to UT and realized real life...
  • Came home with a baby
  • Dissed by my Grandmother(shocker)
  • Thought I could live the same life style with a baby, not the case, had another baby
  • Dissed by friends and some family
  • Gave up that baby to a family that could provide for him(that is another blog for another day) and then mellowed out
  • Continued college in Newton MA
  • Found Kurt through Halee (and Karen, BFF) at a daycare in Waterville Valley skiing for a week
  • Realized this is the guy for me, Irish Catholic, partier...
  • Married, against my mothers disapproval
  • Had 3 more great and healthy kids
  • Drove a bus for 8 years (not my life goal)
  • Had money/spending issues
  • Became stronger in our relationship because of it
  • Found a job that has been challenging and rewarding at the same time
  • Watching my kids grow up and make choices that I have a hard time with but need to let them grow and learn
  • Wondering why I still have acne at almost 40
  • Off to California next week for a trip for Kurt and I. Leaving the kids behind but know this is a much needed trip to reconnect
I know everything happens for a reason and there is a plan for us all and that the challenges we face just make us stronger and know we can be an example to someone some day.