Things That Make You Go Hmmmmm....

Didn't know what to blog about today so I am "stealing" this idea from a friend... http://ascapecodturns.blogspot.com/2010/03/things-that-make-you-go-hmmmmm.html

Sometimes things happen in the world that make you think, hmmmm..... Let's review this week so far...

* The Mater Cleanse is a crazy inner body cleanse that one should stay close to home while doing... Really, it is crazy. But I do feel better. Made it 5 days, will start again on Monday 10 day goal...

* Wondering if our 15 yr old daughter knows how to count... She is having a birthday party in 2 weeks, I said maximum 50 kids... Just checked her FaceBook, it is closer to 75...

*Realizing you are cutting the cord with one of your children to let them make decision for themselves is rewarding:)

* Teaching Abby to drive... Told her to put the car in reverse and the wipers went flying across the window, then she jacked on the turn signals both direction... OMG, this is now Kurt's department...




*Seeing Brock play lacrosse and seeing a bit of aggression coming out, he is such a sweet kid it is good to see some toughness.

* Looking at my "baby" and seeing a 20 year old in an 11 year old body, well almost 12. She might be my biggest challenge...

* Knowing we are doing a good job parenting when our kids want to hang out with us. Really they do!

* Seeing Kurt stress out the past few days makes me realize he is human after all...(Mr. Chicken Soup for the Soul). Usually me that is the stress case...

All in all is has been a good week with a lot of progress.

The Bickersons…

The Bickersons…

bick·er
verb (used without object)
1.to engage in petulant or peevish argument; wrangle: The two were always bickering.
noun
2.an angry, petty dispute or quarrel; contention.

I feel like we should change our family name to the Bickersons… Not for Kurt and I, but for our kids.
For some crazy reason things have been totally nutty at the Hines household. It is a double-edged sword kids with cell phones. My phone has been blowing up with text messages and voicemails about the “drama “ unfolding at home, school, or on the bus.
Some of the texts are humorous and some of them are so far beyond me… My “perfect” children would never drop the “f-bomb” would they? Yes, is the answer…

TEXT: mom i said the f word to brock bc i freaken hate him
Sophia :)

TEXT: you can just ground me dad will yell at me to much
Sophia :)


What are they learning on that school bus?
In my head I have so many different ideas on how to handle this but when I come face to face with them I become like a squid (no backbone). Kurt has been the “heavy” for me. Although if I keep eating and not working out I will have to take over that position by default.

I think what it boils down to is we need to teach our kids patients. This is where all the snappiness comes from. Button pushing is another issue. So as we come to a resolution, I will just have to learn to rule with an iron fist, or a spongy hand.

We are moving… Someday

Here I am on a plane back to NH from San Diego California. We are two days later then expected due to hellish weather in the New England area. We are leaving weather in Cali that was incredible. It is freak’n winter out there and people are in flip-flops, shorts and tee shirts. People in that area were complaining about the weather there… Rain is like snow to them.
The main part of our trip was to see Halee at SDSU. If I had to do college all over again I would be at that school! What a campus! I might even pledge to a sorority, I know crazy but it is a different college experience then where I went. While we were there we took a tour of the campus. As Halee was showing us her school Kurt heard whistles blowing in the distance. He was drawn to them like a moth to a bright light. We came around the corner and BAM, SDSU football practice. Needless to say Halee and I left Kurt there for a bit while she showed me the aquaplex. This is where all the pools are and tanning pools/hot tubs. The pools are salt water; I guess it is better for your skin. This is also where the water polo takes place; I didn’t see any horses though…

We headed back to find Kurt, he hadn’t moved. I took some pictures he talked to some people so not our trip has turned in to a “business trip”, tax write off! We met some of Halees friends, they were all so great!
Another part of our trip was to go see my brothers family north east of the city in Temecula. We have now decided to move to that area some day. We checked out the schools, went to the HS, and found a lot of homes that would work for us. One drawback, they are laying off teachers. Not a good idea for us to move at this point, but I would go in a heartbeat if we won the lottery.

It was so great to see Jenn and the kids! I wish we lived closer because our kids would love them!

We saw a real lifeguard rescue at one of the beaches we were at. Kurt was looking for Pamela Anderson running down the beach. Too bad for him it was two hot young men. They pulled 3 teens from the water. The waves were huge, bigger then anything I have seen and the rip currents were super powerful. Kind of cool for us to see from dry land, scary for the teens. (no one or thing was injured durring this photo)

Mind you during our fun my kids and my dad were dealing with the weather in NH. High winds, rain, flooding, snow, and power outages… I felt horrible that I was in warm weather, and having hot showers as they were struggling at home.

I did sacrifices as well, the airline offered Kurt and I 2 free tickets and a refund on what we paid for the tickets we bought. I so wanted to do it but knew my kids might turn on me and my dad might just abandon the kids.

Choices and the result

As each day goes by I think of the great life I am enjoying. Many choices good and bad have gotten me to this point in life. Here is a list of good and bad that got me to this point.

• Had a dad that was a silent alcoholic and had PTSD
  
• Mom tried protecting us and him so we didn't talk about the issues, and didn't showed much emotion
• Found acceptance in a lot of wrong places
• Tried living up to my brothers level that my mom put him on (couldn't do it)
  
• Left home senior year
• learned about the addiction my dad faced and I was slowly following, and went to treatment in UT while he went in NH
• Went back to UT and realized real life...
• Came home with a baby
• Dissed by my Grandmother(shocker)
  
• Thought I could live the same life style with a baby, not the case, had another baby
• Dissed by friends and some family
  
• Gave up that baby to a family that could provide for him(that is another blog for another day) and then mellowed out
• Continued college in Newton MA
  
• Found Kurt through Halee (and Karen, BFF) at a daycare in Waterville Valley skiing for a week
  
• Realized this is the guy for me, Irish Catholic, partier...
• Married, against my mothers disapproval
• Had 3 more great and healthy kids
• Drove a bus for 8 years (not my life goal)
  
• Had money/spending issues
• Became stronger in our relationship because of it
• Found a job that has been challenging and rewarding at the same time
• Watching my kids grow up and make choices that I have a hard time with but need to let them grow and learn
• Wondering why I still have acne at almost 40
• Off to California next week for a trip for Kurt and I. Leaving the kids behind but know this is a much needed trip to reconnect

I know everything happens for a reason and there is a plan for us all and that the challenges we face just make us stronger and know we can be an example to someone some day.

New Year 2010

Every New Years I make resolutions... Every year I bail on them and myself. What is it going to take? Kurt and I joke about people who are no longer in a relationship start to lose weight and take care of themselves. Do I have to ask Kurt to threaten to leave me? Why don't I put myself first?
Why do I find all these other things to do so I can avoid the gym, or justify a cheat day to take place every other day. I am so tired of being fat! I looked down at my thighs while I was at work today and thought I was looking st someone else. That is not me. Then I poked at my sweater thinking it was all my sweaters and realized it was ME, my gut. OMG are you kidding me? This is ridicules! I can no longer say I feel guilty leaving the kids at home while I go to the gym cause they go more then I do now. I look on the web and in magazines about quick weight loss looking for the miracle cure, there isn't any. I realized that if Oprah has blown up again and she can afford the world and she has not found it it must be true that I have to cut calories and work out:(
How big do I have to be for gastric bypass? I can bulk up and then have the surgery. How much fun would that be just packing it on... Just kidding. If Kurt is reading this he is so scared. LOL

So , I need to pull my head out of my FAT ass and reach some of my goals I have been avoiding.
Biggest Loser is ruthless but if they can lose weight I can too. I know they work out for 6 to 8 hours a day, but I have never seen anyone sweat like that like at Planet Fitness, but maybe I need to step it up and start. If I feel a bead of sweat I panic, I think I might pass out or I stop and head home. Kurt pushes me ( in a loving way) and I have learned I can say no to him and he just keeps dragging me along. I need to step it up and show him and myself I can do this and the pain is a good pain...
So enough is enough and I am on a journey to succeed!

Can you pass the chips?

Lazy vs. Overwhelmed

This is a battle I have with myself a lot. Sometimes when I feel overwhelmed it comes across as me being lazy. I have so much stuff going on in my head and through out my day that I just get so tired. Please tell me I am not the only one that feels this way.
The holidays are over and life is getting back on track. School/work are going well. I did just get told that my position at the HS will be just 181 days, instead of the 210. This is OK with me, but that is 2 pay checks that I will no longer be getting. I just wonder who will pick up my work? I don't think people realize what it takes to finalize up the year or what is involved in starting up a new year. I am sure all will be taken care of:)

I guess some days I am lazy, and most days overwhelmed.

Just had to Post Something...

***The flu has hit the Hines household... Kurt is a snotty, fevery, achy mess. The kids have been home as well but not sure how bad they are. We had over 100+ kids out of the school today due to this outbreak. I have been living on my Bath and Body Anti bacterial sanitizer! Love the stuff!

***Fall has turned into winter and back to spring all in one week. Sunday we had SNOW. Last week freezing cold rain, and today was a balmy 64. I hear it will be almost 70 tomorrow. I hope Friday night is mild for the last home game of the season.

***Kurt's team is doing well. They lost by a field goal last week:( I so hope they win the last game! That would be so sweet to win their first and last game... Good vibes!

***Called to re-up my XM Radio... When did people in Kentucky forget to speak English? I called for some info and could believe the accent. When the guy started talking about Wal-Mart I almost died. I thought of the website you all should look at: www.peopleofwalmart.com
Needless to say, I told the guy I would check out the XM website for more info.


***Abby finished field hockey this past week.


Halee broke up with Jon, then realized it was not what she really wanted. SO, they are back together. I think it was a total of 12 hours... Brock has started getting ready for wrestling by working out. Sophia has been figuring out who are her true friends at school and who is going to get kicked to the curb. Girl drama. I told her make friends with the boys they don't care about if she is talking to so-n-so, or what she is wearing.(well for now).

***I am going on call at the VA hospital for a bit. Need to get my head on straight and stop spreading my self to thin... Well I would like to be thin physically:) That's a whole other issue. I think I will stop there for tonight.